May I join?
If I can, here it is...it's not very good, but...
The One Who Never Existed
You come close to me
Closer than any other
Touch me, protect me
Much more than I deserve
You stroke my hair
My head of evil and treachery
You whisper into my ears
Words I know I will never hear
You are there when I want you
And yet, are not when I need you
You comfort me with your touch
And yet, I feel an unpleasant emptiness
Sometimes I long for you
Search for you through the streets
I have taken my chances
Too many, I agree
And yet, I have never found you
I have never found one quite like you
You are the one thing in this world
That I really need
The one thing in the world
That I truly want
And yet, are you there?
Do you truly love me, like I believe?
Do you know me?
Do you know that I still live?
Sometimes, when you touch,
your fingers disappear
When you feel, when you protect
Your gaze looks at me, empty
You whisper in my ear
Words I am not meant to hear
Because deep down inside
I know you are too perfect
Too good
Too loving
When I look at you carefully
Look into your eyes
You suddenly disappear...
Into the cold air that once filled my room
For I know deep inside
Deep inside my heart
That you are out of my reach
And that you will never reward me with your presence
Why?
You never existed.