^ Your grandfather has Alzhiemers? My grandmum passed away in January after an 8 year battle with it. If you could call it a battle. The lyrics to the song you posted really touch me.

Apologise -- OneRepublic

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin' what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologise, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologise, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin' new
I loved you with a fire red -
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologise, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologise, it's too late

It's too late to apologise, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologise, it's too late
It's too late to apologise, yeah
I said it's too late to apologise, yeah-
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...

Pretty much my favorite lyrics ever, if not my favorite song.

The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot--Brand New

If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand.
I hope you find out what you are.
I already know what I am.
And if it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again.
And you can tell me how vile I already know that I am.
I'll grow old and start acting my age.
I'll be a brand new day in a life that you hate.
A crown of gold, a heart that's harder than stone.
And it hurts to hold on, but it's missed when it's gone.

Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not.
I'm glad that you can forgive.
Only hoping as time goes, you can forget.

If it makes you less sad, I'll move out of the state.
You can keep to yourself.
I'll keep out of your way.
And if it makes you less sad, I'll take your pictures all down.
Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out.
It's cold as a tomb, and it's dark in your room
When I sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds.
So call it quits or get a grip.
You say you wanted a solution.
You just wanted to be missed.

Call me a safe bet.
I'm betting I'm not.
I'm glad that you can forgive.
I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget...
So you can forget
You can forget

You are calm and reposed.
Let your beauty unfold
Pale white like the skin stretched over your bones.
Spring keeps you ever close.
You are second hand smoke.
You are so fragile and thin.
Standing trial for your sins.
Holding onto yourself the best you can.
You are the smell before rain.
You are the blood in my veins.

Call me a safe bet.
I'm betting I'm not.
I'm glad that you can forgive.
I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget.

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Be with me always - take any form - drive me mad! only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you!

my new favourite song:

Diamonds and Rust - Joan Baez

Well I'll be damned
Here comes your ghost again
But that's not unusual
It's just that the moon is full
And you happened to call
And here I sit
Hand on the telephone
Hearing a voice I'd known
A couple of light years ago
Heading straight for a fall

As I remember your eyes
Were bluer than robin's eggs
My poetry was lousy you said
Where are you calling from?
A booth in the midwest
Ten years ago
I bought you some cufflinks
You brought me something
We both know what memories can bring
They bring diamonds and rust

Well you burst on the scene
Already a legend
The unwashed phenomenon
The original vagabond
You strayed into my arms
And there you stayed
Temporarily lost at sea
The Madonna was yours for free
Yes the girl on the half-shell
Would keep you unharmed

Now I see you standing
With brown leaves falling around
And snow in your hair
Now you're smiling out the window
Of that crummy hotel
Over Washington Square
Our breath comes out white clouds
Mingles and hangs in the air
Speaking strictly for me
We both could have died then and there

Now you're telling me
You're not nostalgic
Then give me another word for it
You who are so good with words
And at keeping things vague
Because I need some of that vagueness now
It's all come back too clearly
Yes I loved you dearly
And if you're offering me diamonds and rust
I've already paid

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7 Days to the Wolves - Nightwish

The wolves, my love, will come
Taking us home where dust once was a man

Is there Life before a Death?
Do we long too much and never let in?

Howl
7 days to the wolves
Where will we be when they come
7 days to the poison
And a place in heaven
Time drawing near as they come to take us

This is my church of choice
Love's strength standeth in love's sacrifice

For the rest, I have to say to you
I will dream like the God
And suffer like all the dead children

Howl
7 days to the wolves
Where will we be when they come
7 days to the poison
And a place in heaven
Time drawing near as they come to take us

This is
Where heroes
And cowards
Part ways

Light the fire, feast
Chase the ghost, give in
Take the road less traveled by
Leave the city of fools
Turn every poet loose

Heroes
Cowards
No more

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'Fallen' - Symphony X

Alone I walk, among the twisting
shadows
tempted by the ancient magic, the Power
of Five
My desire to mirror my own image -
and I will offer you no soul - offer you no
soul

Tonight Darkness will shadow the Light -
Symmetry divine, there's no force greater
Dividing the Fathers of Time

Feel my hate, I'm banished to this
wasteland
my Serpents plot the overthrow of your
temples and shrines
In the night, my army's rage and fury
burning my
shadow into the land - Vengeance by my
hand

Tonight Darkness will shadow the Light -
Symmetry divine, there's no force greater
Dividing the Fathers of Time
Tonight Darkness will shadow the Light -
Paradise denied - the balance of ages
forever lost in time

Was I sure of my fateful wish to evoke
the night from the day?
Thousands now join as one - be afraid
What have I done? Clouds are dimming
the Sun with his wrath of disease and
decay
This masque of vengeance leads my
death parade
What have I done?
"My shadow burning - my shadow burns
across the land...".

Tonight Darkness will shadow the Light -
Symmetry divine, there's no force greater
Dividing the Fathers of Time
Tonight Darkness will shadow the Light -
Paradise denied - the balance of ages
forever lost in time

"...and there was a need for balance, the
coming of Ma'at.."

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Broken--Lifehouse

The broken clock is a comfort
It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow
From stealing all my time
And I am here still waiting
Though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
Like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning
I'm barely holding on to you

The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection
Inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose
They're still looking for life

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
Is there healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what, you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on, to the words you say
You said that I will, will be okay
The broken light on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
But I haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on
Barely holding on to you
Barely holding on to you

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Be with me always - take any form - drive me mad! only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you!

If i had my way-Linda Eder

Long ago and far away
Before the world had come to this
I took for granted how my life would be
Assuming that my freedom wiould be free

Before these eil shadows fell
I reveled in the light of day
I rarely ever cried
My patience wasn't tried
And heroes never died

But if I had my way, things would be different
Danger wouldn't come from a sky of blue
Choices would be clear
Strangers would be kinder
Love a little blinder
As it saved the day
If I had my way

Every now and then it seems
We live our lives to such extremes
Racing all around, never homeward bound
Losing what we found

But if I had my way, things would be different
No one would believe that a lie was true
Choices would be clear
Wisdom would be heeded
Warnings never needed
This is what I pray
If I had my way

The milk of human kindness
Will seek us out and find us
And color all the words we say

And hearts would come alive, instead of breaking
No one would believe that a lie was true
Angels would appear
Children would be cherished
Hope would never perish
Faith would not be tried
If I had my way

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No Way Back - Norther

I no longer feel where do my heart belong
This shivering wind has frozen it to the core
And the rain that whips my face covers my tears
These dark shades of night hide my fears
There's no way, no way back
Wherever I'm walking

I hide behind my smile
And it hurts me inside
I cry without shedding a tear
I'm sorry this ends here

Still the wind blows and the rain falls on me
And I know there's no way back, no way back
Forever I'm walking

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banner by Aredhel Ar-Feiniel

"Wings of Time" Týr

Frændir teir á skógin ríða
Við so góðum treysti
Sóu brenna heitan eld
Og hartil fagrar kostir
Vítt um vegir gyltnir hjálmar syngja
Stíga á sínar hestar teir springa
Hoyrast kundi langen veg sum teirra sporar ringja
Vítt um vegir gyltnir hjálmar syngja

If we live and we die, it it’s based on a lie
So we come, we go, who knows just why

Places I’ve seen in decay
Things that I’ve known fade away
People I know never stay
Things that I am yesterday

Frændir teir á skógin ríða
Við so góðum treysti
Sóu brenna heitan eld
Og hartil fagrar kostir
Vítt um vegir gyltnir hjálmar syngja
Stíga á sínar hestar teir springa
Hoyrast kundi langen veg sum teirra sporar ringja
Vítt um vegir gyltnir hjálmar syngja

One thousand years facing your fears
Hide all your doubt deep in the crowd
Unload the blame cover the shame
Cast it all out try to stand proud

Frændir teir á skógin ríða
Við so góðum treysti
Sóu brenna heitan eld
Og hartil fagrar kostir
Vítt um vegir gyltnir hjálmar syngja
Stíga á sínar hestar teir springa
Hoyrast kundi langen veg sum teirra sporar ringja
Vítt um vegir gyltnir hjálmar syngja

If we live and we die and we live and we die
If we live and we breed our kin to succeed
So we come we go and leave our seed

The great wings of time are still in their prime
Maybe in some age to come we shall see
The talons of time take hold of a tree
Time folding its wings, the end of all things

Frændir teir á skógin ríða
Við so góðum treysti
Sóu brenna heitan eld
Og hartil fagrar kostir
Vítt um vegir gyltnir hjálmar syngja
Stíga á sínar hestar teir springa
Hoyrast kundi langen veg sum teirra sporar ringja
Vítt um vegir gyltnir hjálmar syngja

_________________
And as he looked into her eyes
Within the auburn of her hair
The trembling starlight of the skies
He saw there mirrored bright and fair

♥In a poly relationship with Kili and Tauriel♥

Dancing In The Dark - Bruce Springsteen

I get up in the evening
and I ain't got nothing to say
I come home in the morning
I go to bed feeling the same way
I ain't nothing but tired
Man I'm just tired and bored with myself
Hey there baby, I could use just a little help

You can't start a fire
You can't start a fire without a spark
This gun's for hire
even if we're just dancing in the dark

Message keeps getting clearer
radio's on and I'm moving 'round the place
I check my look in the mirror
I wanna change my clothes, my hair, my face
Man I ain't getting nowhere
I'm just living in a dump like this
There's something happening somewhere
baby I just know that there is

You can't start a fire
You can't start a fire without a spark
This gun's for hire
even if we're just dancing in the dark

You sit around getting older
there's a joke here somewhere and it's on me
I'll shake this world off my shoulders
come on baby this laugh's on me

Stay on the streets of this town
and they'll be carving you up alright
They say you gotta stay hungry
Hey baby I'm just about starving tonight
I'm dying for some action
I'm sick of sitting 'round here trying to write this book
I need a love reaction
come on now baby gimme just one look

You can't start a fire sitting 'round crying over a broken heart
This gun's for hire
even if we're just dancing in the dark
You can't start a fire worrying about your little world falling apart
This gun's for hire
Even if we're just dancing in the dark
Even if we're just dancing in the dark
Even if we're just dancing in the dark
Even if we're just dancing in the dark.

_________________

"Without music, life would be a mistake." - Friedrich Nietzsche



"Make happy those who are near, and those who are far will come."

Fwee!

"Come On" - Air Traffic

You take the sun from that hole in the sky
And then place it in my little hand
Oh what a rush just to be in control
It’s like nothing you could understand

But this time I’m not gonna let it go
This time, I want everyone to know
You’re a fool, you’re wrong,
I believe in myself,
I believe in myself this time

So come on, come on,
Can we break this place apart?
Come on, come on,
To me.

The taste of blood, like a spur in my side
It’s no wonder I’m a driven soul
Why do you think I'd just lie here and get f*cked
While you tell me that I’m undersold?

You should be scared, I'll be in amongst desire
I’m a spark to set the truth on fire
Yes I am, I’m here
I’m the antichrist
I’ll be leaving alive, I’ll be leaving alive

So come on, come on,
Can we break this place apart?
Come on, come on,
To me.

I struggle to my knees
Struggle to my knees
I’m getting to my feet
I’m getting to my feet

You should be calling my name
You should be calling my name
You should be calling my name
You should be calling my...

So come on, come on,
Can we break this place apart?
Come on, come on,
To me.

"The Corey Curse" Everygrey

Can you feel the cold
The chill around your neck
Dare I touch your skin
And wake you up again
In the light of the moon
I begin to sow the seeds
My seduction
My dominance
Your tragedy

I can taste your fear
And I can seal your fate
With your death as my altar
And your soul as my aim
You can't rid the pain
Your weakness feeds me strength
Cause I've been born again
In malevolence

To eternity
Of guilt and remorse
To the vengeance of a tragic
A tragic soul

To eternity
Of guilt and remorse
To the vengeance of a tragic
A tragic soul

The Corey Curse

The Corey Curse

Brick after brick
The weight of the stones
All for a confession that I my soul have sold
You've come to cleanse our Salem
Your work of God not much worth with me
My silence will kill me
But I'll haunt you for infinity

To eternity
Of guilt and remorse
To the vengeance of a tragic
A tragic soul

To eternity
Of guilt and remorse
To the vengeance of a tragic
A tragic soul

The Corey Curse

The Corey Curse

(This song is based on the Salem Witch Trial Victim, Giles Corey)

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And as he looked into her eyes
Within the auburn of her hair
The trembling starlight of the skies
He saw there mirrored bright and fair

♥In a poly relationship with Kili and Tauriel♥

"Whistles the Wind" by Flogging Molly

Whistles the wind
Blowin' my way
Sweepin' me back, back here to stay
Can winners be losers?
Runnin' on the same track
While some head for glory, others we crash

Well it breaks my heart to see you this way
The beauty in life where's it gone
And somebody told me you were doin' okay
But somehow I guess they were wrong

My isolation
Now there's a sobering thought
A minute alone, a lifetime too long
See the face in this mirror
So pale it could crack
Desperately wantin' the color it lacks

Well it breaks my heart to see you this way
The beauty in life where's it gone
And somebody told me you were doin' okay
But somehow I guess they were wrong

So you drank with the lost souls
For too many years
Tied to their ankles now crippled with fear
Never been righteous though seldom were wrong
Life's only life with you in this song

Now there's an ocean between
Where I am and where I want to be
So you prayers in doubt
Doubt not for me

Well it breaks my heart to see you this way
The beauty in life where's it gone
And somebody told me you were doin' okay
But somehow I guess they were wrong

Well it breaks my heart to see you this way
The beauty in life where's it gone
And somebody told me you were doin' okay
But somehow I guess they were wrong

Whistles the wind
Whistles the wind
Whistles the wind
Whistles the wind

Though you'll find your way out
But there's no goin' now
Every woman and child
Drags you down for the dive
It's not safe being free
Can't give back what you feel
He said you'll always be in heaven with me

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"There's an ocean between.....where I am and where I want to be"

"The Fall of Finrod" Rivendell

Resisting, battling against power,
Of secrets kept, strength like a tower,
And trust unbroken, freedom, escape;
Of changing and of shifting shape

Then the gloom gathered; darkness growing
In Valinor, the red blood flowing

Of snares eluded, broken traps,
The prison opening, the chain that snaps.
Backwards and forwards swayed their song.
Reeling and foundering, as ever more strong

The chanting swelled, Felagund fought,
And all the magic and might he brought
Of Elvenesse into his words.
Softly in the gloom they heard the birds

Singing afar in Nargothrond,
The sighting of the Sea beyond,
Beyond the western world, on sand,
On sand of pearls in Elvenland.

Then the gloom gathered; darkness growing
In Valinor, the red blood flowing

Then the gloom gathered; darkness growing
In Valinor, the red blood flowing

Beside the Sea, where the Noldor slew
The Foamriders, and stealing drew
Their white ships with their white sails
From lamplit havens. The wind wails,

The wolf howls. The ravens flee.
The ice mutters in the mouths of the Sea.
The captives sad in Angband mourn.
Thunder rumbles, the fires burn ---

And Finrod fell before the throne.

(Yay for Tolkienish black metal )

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And as he looked into her eyes
Within the auburn of her hair
The trembling starlight of the skies
He saw there mirrored bright and fair

♥In a poly relationship with Kili and Tauriel♥

The Way - Amorphis

Forging the future from the timeless stone
Oh let me know how far I can go
Answering the questions thet no one ever asks
Float through the sea of madness
And face the everlasting task

So lonely to wander
So sad to be alone
In the mist of the unknown
Trying to fool myself with dreams that never come true
So hard to stand my ground
Never again will I fail

Will you tell me not to wait
Tell me to live for today

As the flowers wither
I will forget my pain
Since the stars have shone
The devil has shown me the way

Will you tell me not to wait
Tell me to live for today

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you're all i have - snow patrol

Train this chaos turn it into light
I've got to see you one last night
Before the lions take their share
Leave us in pieces, scattered everywhere

Just give me a chance to hold on
Just give me something to hold onto

It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear cause you are all that I have

You're cinematic razor sharp
A welcome arrow through the heart
Under your skin feels like home
Electric shocks on aching bones

Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Just give me something to hold onto

It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear cause you are all that I have
It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear cause you are all that I have

There is a darkness deep in you
A frightening magic I cling to

Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Just give me something to hold onto

It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear now you are all that I have
It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear now you are all that I have

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