Michael Johns - Fire
(And no pun intended, but hottest song in the world to me.)

well i went down to the water but i never quite got clean
so i took a train to st. louis just to see what other people seen
i tried to fight the power but i never seem to win
i been down a long time but i'll be coming back again

cause i got fire, fire, fire
shut up in my bones.
i got fire, fire, fire
shut up in my bones.

now there's a feast upon my table
and i got polish on my boots
and i remember what my mama said, she said
"son don't forget your roots"
so i went back to where i came from
and i started all over again
but if you think you've seen the best of me,
you better look out now my friend

cause i got fire, fire, fire
shut up in my bones.
i got fire, fire, fire
shut up in my bones.

well i got lightning in my veins,
thunder in my soul
and i'm bringing down the fire

fire
fire
fire
shut up in my bones
i got fire
fire
fire
shut up in my bones.
i got fire, fire, fire shut up in my bones.

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"The piano is able to communicate the subtlest universal truths by means of wood, metal and vibrating air."

"Land of No Return" - Wild Sweet Orange

There's a sunrise every morning that you miss 'cause you're asleep.
There's a sunset every evening, you miss in your car leaving to wherever it is that you're going.
You're not pulled but led.
'Cause its not for who you're going, but what they give you instead.
So when you go, tell me where are you going.
'Cause there's no place you can run to, forget all your longing.
So forget where you're going.
Its been a long time for you darling, running from that house in the hills.
Where your parents still lay obsessing over the dust on the ceiling fans.
And did they do the same to you, child?
Did they lock you behind you door?
When they whispered their darkest secrets, saying, "I don't love you anymore."
So when you go, tell me where are you going.
'Cause there's no place you can run to, forget all your longing.
So forget where you're going.
Is it true, is it true what they say?
In these woods there's something real strange, you can walk for what seems like days.
Is this the land of no returning?
Is it true, is it true what they say?
In these woods there's something real strange.
You can walk for what seems like days and the trees all start to take face,
hold as you're running in place,
and then they all start to scream, "This is the land of no returning!"
Oh, when will you start believing that there are monsters beneath your bed?
And those voices of self-destruction could never burgeon in your head.
Oh and love is no illusion sometimes I can see it in your eyes.
And hear it moan and tumble down the hill when the traffic dies
So when you go, tell me where are you going.
'Cause there's no place you can run to forget all your longing.
So forget where you're going.

"Almost Lover" A Fine Frenzy

You fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy for you
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

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V.T.W. 1/11/61-11/30/10

i didn't make this, but i can tell you who did.

"Swim" - Jack's Mannequin

You gotta swim
Swim for your life
Swim for the music
That saves you
When you're not so sure you'll survive
You gotta swim
Swim when it hurts
The whole world is watching
You haven't come this far
To fall off the earth

The currents will pull you
Away from your love
Just keep your head above

I found a tidal wave
Begging to tear down the door
Memories like bullets
They fired at me from a gun
Cracking me open now
I swim to brighter days
In spite of the absence of sun
Choking on salt water
I'm not giving in
You gotta swim

You gotta swim
For nights that won’t end
Swim for your family
Your mothers your sisters
Your brothers your friends
You gotta swim
For wars without cause
Swim for these lost politicians
Who don't see their greed is a flaw

The currents will pull us
Away from our love
Just keep your head above

I found a tidal wave
Begging to tear down the door
Memories like bullets
They fired at me from a gun
Cracking me open now
I swim to brighter days
In spite of the absence of sun
Choking on salt water
I'm not giving in
I'm not giving in
Swim

You gotta swim
Swim in the dark
There's an ocean to drift in
Feel the tide shifting away from this war
Yeah you gotta swim
Don't let yourself sink
Just follow the horizon
I promise you it's not as far as you think

Currents will drag us away from our love
Just keep your head above
Just keep your head above
Swim
Just keep your head above
Swim
Just keep your head above
Swim

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Illuminate the way to my heart,
It's twisting on a thread
+ COME RAISE THE DEAD +

"Run" - Snow Patrol

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

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Be with me always - take any form - drive me mad! only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you!

"Does Your Cat Have a Mustache?" - The Format

I want it all
Even the raindrops won't fall in my way
I'm parting the seas
I'm setting the standard for living a dream
By staying awake
And counting the days
I'm falling in love by the side of the road

Mrs. Math do you always count to thirteen?
Holding sunsets
Voting on pieces of string
Wishy-wash, tabletop, one, two, three
Does your cat have a mustache?
Does it remind you of me?

I want it all
Even for me the autumn leaves stay green
And all of the clams that is holding your hand
Could never, ever take the place all like me
But now forget the time
It's a crime
That the pearl
Of a girl
Has been waiting to be set free...

Mrs. Math do you always count to thirteen?
Holding sunsets
Voting on pieces of string
Wishy-wash, tabletop, one, two, three
Well, does your cat have a mustache?
Does it remind you of your cat with a mustache?
Does it remind you of...

The ships that sail towards the west
The largest guard the treasure chest
The water never harms the mast
It's the clouds that fool the sun to set

One, two, three four!

(The ships that sail towards the west
The largest guard the treasure chest
The water never harms the mast
It's the clouds that fool the sun to set)

Cover your eyes
Try and walk a straight line
I tell you, the darkness is robbing us blind
And although I can't see your heart
I can still hear it beat from your breast
It's like a lighthouse
It's like a lighthouse

I'm gonna find you
I'm gonna find you
I'm gonna find you
I'm gonna find you
Alright

I'm gonna find you
I'm gonna find you
I'm gonna find you
I'm gonna find you

I'm gonna find you...

Obedience in the Absence of Logic - Trail of Tears

Victimized, indulge in the lies
To have no control is the way of the blind

Comatized, the trance in their eyes
A demise of souls, for them to live is to hide

You used to be one of them for a while
Helplessly you crawled and obeyed as the lies unfolded
Opened up yourself to a lie often told
Your feelings were all stunned and your hands so tightly folded

I will lead you, I will guide you
I will bring you to your safety
I will lead you, I will guide you
I will clean you of your frailty

A pathetic and weak ensemble
Using blindfold to gain attention

Integrity was lost
To live in disguise was a solid decline
from all you wished for
Your hope was shot dead and you bled for their lies
Profound devotion to the moral disguise
Collection of fools so fatally scarred

You could never see cause your eyes were sewn shut
All logic seemed impaled as you fell to your knees and pleaded
Never got a chance to reflect on their cause
Your dignity so ridiculed yet your hope so dearly needed

Opened up yourself to the higher word
Told by souls with intentions to scar
You're effectively paralysed!
Recognition of the ones who saw you drown
in relentless and distinguished disguise

Integrity was lost...

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This is track #9 on the album Edge of Silence by the band Solas and is such a beautiful if sad song.


Clothes of Sand - Nick Drake

Who has dressed you in strange clothes of sand
Who has taken you far from my land
Who has said that my sayings were wrong
And who will say that I stayed much too long?

Clothes of sand have covered yor face
Given you meaning but taken my place
So make your way on down to the sea
Something has taken you so far from me.

Does it now seem worth all the colour of skies
To see the earth through painted eyes
To look through panes of shaded glass
See the stains of winters grass.

Can you now return to from where you came
Try to burn your changing name
Or with silver spoons and coloured light
Will you worship moons in winters night.

Clothes of sand have covered your face
Given you meaning but taken my place
So make your way on down to the sea
Something has taken you so far from me.

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Hanasian
Annalist, Physician, & Historian
of The Black Company of the Dúnedain,
The Free Company of Arnor
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"Goodbye Young Tutor, You've Now Outgrown Me" - Say Anything


Black days. You've changed.
Oh have you left me here to rot?
I kid you not.
I miss you girl; you're all that makes me true.

Your breath. Your scent.
Follows drifting on the vapor.
I can't escape her.
She was my love,
Now she's pushing me away.

The night that we met,
The back of the show.
My favorite band,
But you wouldn't know.
From looking at me,
All wrapped up in you.
But where can you be now,
And what can I do for you?
Just say "Maxim,
I love you, I need you, and no one will do but you so
I love you, I miss you, and no one will do but you.

No one will do but you.

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Be with me always - take any form - drive me mad! only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you!

"Bloodshot" - Jack's Mannequin

She walks to the mailbox each morning at nine
Everyday she begins she's always one day behind...
At least when it comes to the mail
She sits on the balcony paying the bills
Her letters just hashing her cigarettes onto the sill
Every breath a little more pale

And the hill's still left to climb
It's just so high
And I'm so tired
Come on look me in my bloodshot eyes
The clouds are all on fire
It's just so high
And I'm so tired
Come on, look me in my bloodshot eyes
The clouds are all on...

He sits in his basement from midnight 'til four
Painting pictures that nobody sees from his days in the war
The canvas is painted bright red, red
He heats up the shower, he paces the hall
He'll scrub for an hour or more but he won't get it all
The paint in his fingernail beds

The hill's still left to climb
It's just so high
And I'm so tired
Come on, look me in my bloodshot eyes
The clouds are all on fire
It's just so high
And I'm so tired
Come on, look up at the bloodshot sky
The clouds are all on fire
The clouds are all on fire
The clouds are all on...

We wait in valleys while the clouds come in
We see no shadows, 'cause the shadow's all there is
And we climb,
And we climb...

But it's just so high
And I'm so tired
Come on look me in my bloodshot eyes
The clouds are all on fire
It's just so high
And I'm so tired
Come on, look up at the bloodshot sky
The clouds are all on fire

^ That song is win

At Sixes and Sevens - Sirenia

In times of strife
you seem to lose it all, and more somehow
No waning life can retrieve it
Can't make the world a better place to thrive
nor can I keep on persisting

You're on the wane in funereal winds
with a thousand winters within
You're life unveil its weary eyes
Sun sets in somber skies

Your waning desires brought to fire
where your withering life has been mourned
For a thousand years, where the pain blend with ire
and the night enflames us both

"Walk down the narrow path
Years of decay
Feel life's soul-inflicting hurt once again"

You're dying now
You make it feel somewhat divine
Your lenient eyes are somewhat healing
You make it feel the less a strife now
A precious life cease persisting

You're on the wane and eden's hewn
falter still under a funereal moon
Your tears they sweep upon life's shore
until the day you weep no more

Sunset's on the wane
In life we suffer the same
When sundown comes around
stalking strangers on hollowed ground
Endarkened souls entwined
together at the end of life
Embrace the new divine
or suffer another lifetime

I can feel the flames
the fire lick me in vain
My life can't be regained
not now, nor then, nor ever again
We cross our feeble hearts
the day our souls depart
Life move in strangest ways
We died somewhat, somehow in every day

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The Beginning (A Simple Seed) - The Classic Crime

I left my heart in a plastic box on the bedside table
It will be locked 'til I get home
I've grown feeble and tired of the world, and
Tired of constantly missing my girl
And I long to smell the sea
I long to smell the sea
The sea

I miss the pacific ocean and the northwestern air,
And to run each of my fingers through the strands of her hair
I've been all over this country lately,
but I've been no where it seems, no where.
Well I've found the cure for my landlocked blues;

It's coming home to you.
It's coming home to you.

If a simple seed gets just what it needs,
Then a redwood tree can grow
Up to a hundred feet for the world to see,
And endure the sleet and the snow
But if my whole life was wrapped and priced,
I wonder what the tag would show
'cause every time I'm close to the holy ghost,
I always seem to let her go
I let her go.

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Be with me always - take any form - drive me mad! only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you!

Ferras "Hollywood's Not America"

Born helena jane
With a restless soul
She moved west to california
Became a center-fold

But once you change your name
Well the pieces fall
Now she hardly recognizes herself at all

And there’s never any rain, when you want it
A hollow little game, and you’ve won it
Looking for a thrill but you’ve done it all

So long, put your blue jeans back on girl
Go home
Remember hollywood’s not america
So long put your blue jeans back on girl
Go home
Remember hollywood’s not america
O yeah!

And everybody heres, from somewhere else
You could make a million dollars, but you might lose yourself
And you can take the heat will your heart go cold
They say acting’s just pretending, even that gets old

And there’s never any rain, when you want it
A hollow little game, and you’ve won it
Looking for a thrill but you’ve done it all

So long, put your blue jeans back on girl
Go home
Remember hollywood’s not america
So long put your blue jeans back on girl
Go home
Remember hollywood’s not america

And i know what to do when
I know that you
You can be anything you want to be

So long, put your blue jeans back on girl
Go home
Remember hollywood’s not america
So long put your blue jeans back on girl
Go home
Remember hollywood’s not america
Hollywood’s not america
It’s not america

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V.T.W. 1/11/61-11/30/10

i didn't make this, but i can tell you who did.

Epilogue: What If - Emilie Autumn

Here you sit in your high-backed chair
Wonder how the view is from there
I wouldn't know 'cause I like to sit
Upon the floor, yeah upon the floor
If you like we could play a game
Let's pretend that we are the same
But you will have to look much closer
Than you do, closer than you do
And I'm far too tired to stay here anymore
And I don't care what you think anyway
'Cause I think you were wrong about me
Yeah what if you were, what if you were
And what if I'm a snowstorm burning
What if I'm a world unturning
What if I'm an ocean, far too shallow, much too deep
What if I'm the kindest demon
Something you may not believe in
What if I'm a siren singing gentlemen to sleep

I know you've got it figured out
Tell me what I am all about
And I just might learn a thing or two
Hundred about you, maybe about you
I'm the end of your telescope
I don't change just to suit your vision
'Cause I am bound by a fraying rope
Around my hands, tied around my hands
And you close your eyes when I say I'm breaking free
And put your hands over both your ears
Because you cannot stand to believe I'm not
The perfect girl you thought
Well what have I got to lose
And what if I'm a weeping willow
Laughing tears upon my pillow
What if I'm a socialite who wants to be alone
What if I'm a toothless leopard
What if I'm a sheepless shepherd
What if I'm an angel without wings to take me home

You don't know me
Never will, never will
I'm outside your picture frame
And the glass is breaking now
You can't see me
Never will, never will
If you're never gonna see
What if I'm a crowded desert
Too much pain with little pleasure
What if I'm the nicest place you never want to go
What if I don't know who I am
Will that keep us both from trying
To find out and when you have
Be sure to let me know
What if I'm a snowstorm burning
What if I'm a world unturning
What if I'm an ocean, far too shallow, much too deep
What if I'm the kindest demon
Something you may not believe in
What if I'm a siren singing gentlemen to sleep
Sleep...
Sleep...

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"Silent Film" - Idiot Pilot

In the backs of your minds,
We're thinking of a kiss,
I am bored again.

I'm awake,
I was dreaming,
In the age of divorce,
I am bored again,
I am bored again.

No - no secrets.
I'll keep heaping,
Ceased to go - go.

After all, all they want is your soul,
And some coins,
I am bored again.
I am bored again.

No secret, we'll keep no - cease to go.

I'll take the quiet life,
A silent film in black and white,
You'll take another life,
That isn't yours.

I'll take the quiet life,
Some cheap novels and T.V. dinners,
You'll take another life,
That isn't mine.

I'll take the quiet life,
Some black and white,
And painkillers,
You'll take another life,
A frozen home. (Is this home?)

This life is not what I call living.