Needs -Collective Soul

All around me I see what weakness has made
Too much tomorrow I think I'll take all today
Am I a poison, Am I a thorn in the side
Am I a picture, perfect subject tonight

I don't need nobody
I don't need the weight of words to find a way
To crash on through
I don't need nobody
I just need to learn the depth
Or doubt of faith to fall into

Here I slumber to awaken my daze
I find convenience in this savior I save
Am I a prison, Am I a source of dire news
Am I a picture perfect reason for you

I don't need nobody
I don't need the weight of words to find a way
To crash on through
I don't need nobody
I just need to learn the depth or doubt
Of faith to fall into

In this time of substitute
It's my needs I've answered to (All the while)
And the hope that I invest
Still turns to signals of distress (All the while)

I don't need nobody
I don't need the weight of words to find a way
To crash on through
I don't need nobody
I just need to learn the depth or doubt
Of faith to fall into

You're all I need
When the water runs deep
You're all I need
Now I cry my soul to sleep
You're all I need [4x]

Girl Anachronism - The Dresden Dolls

You can tell
From the scars on my arms
And the cracks on my hips[one version]
And the stains on my skirt[another version]
And the dents in my car
And the blisters on my lips
That I'm not the carefullest of girls

You can tell
From the glass on the floor
And the strings that're breaking
And I keep on breaking more
And it looks like I am shaking
But it's just the temperature
And then again
If it were any colder I could disengage
If I were any older I could act my age
But I don't think that you'd believe me
It's
Not
The
Way
I'm
Meant
To
Be
It's just the way the operation made me

And you can tell
From the state of my room
That they let me out too soon
And the pills that I ate
Came a couple years too late
And I've got some issues to work through
There I go again
Pretending to be you
Make-believing
That I have a soul beneath the surface
Trying to convince you
It was accidentally on purpose

I am not so serious
This passion is a plagiarism
I might join your century
But only on a rare occasion
I was taken out
Before the labor pains set in and now
Behold the world's worst accident
I am the girl anachronism

And you can tell
By the red in my eyes
And the bruises on my thighs
And the knots in my hair
And the bathtub full of flies
That I'm not right now at all
There I go again
Pretending that I'll fall
Don't call the doctors
Cause they've seen it all before
They'll say just
Let
Her
Crash
And
Burn
She'll learn
The attention just encourages her

And you can tell
From the full-body cast
That you're sorry that you asked
Though you did everything you could
(like any decent person would)
But I might be catching so don't touch
You'll start believing you're immune to gravity and stuff
Don't get me wet
Because the bandages will all come off

And you can tell
From the smoke at the stake
That the current state is critical
Well it is the little things, for instance...
In the time it takes to break it she can make up ten excuses...
Please excuse her for the day, its just the way the medication makes her...

I don't necessarily believe there is a cure for this
So I might join your century but only as a doubtful guest
I was too precarious removed as a caesarian
Behold the worlds worst accident
I AM THE GIRL ANACHRONISM
I'm the girl...
I AM THE GIRL ANACHRONISM

(This song is in Japanese, but this is the translation)

Zakurogata no Yuutsu - the GazettE
Lyrics by Ruki (Gazette's vocalist)

Cry and cry, and when the tears have stopped,
Let's keep a smile on our faces.
Cry and cry, and if you smile to me, ever by my side.

The morning light coming from the window
looks different than usual.
This ill air is because I've seen what lay ahead
when the get-well flowers in the vase wilt. You always kid around to cheer me up
cheerfully showing me kindness, caring more about me than yourself...
It must be tough. Seeing me this way.
Why don't you just come and say you're tired?
You never made a sour face,
you simply held me gently and cried for me.

I wanna live, I don't wanna die. Everytime I think of it, the tears spill.
I wanna live, there's nothing I can do for you

It seems like I've been asleep quite awhile,
next to me only your scent remains.
I felt a bit uneasy, the fear welling up within me.
And the days go by, a memo came to me
as I waited for you to come home. It was from you.

I was left dumbfounded by what was written.
I cried out as if I'd been broken.

-------------------------------------
(the memo)
I'm sorry.
for acting without your consent.
I just wanted to help you.
If I could die for you
nothing would make me happier...

-------------------------------------

You're always watching over me from within me.
When I close my eyes and think about you,
I can't forget that smile.
From now I'll live my life looking at the same background over and over,
blown by the seabreeze and the light coming from the window.
I'll fall asleep,
even if we never awake again.

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Wanderlust - Nightwish

I want to see where the sirens sing
Hear how the wolves howl
Sail the dead calm waters of the Pacific

Dance in the fields of coral
Be blinded by the white
Discover the deepest jungle

I want to find The Secret Path
A bird delivered into my heart, so

It's not the end
Not the kingdom come
It is the journey that matters, the distant wanderer
Call of the wild
In me forever and ever and ever forever
Wanderlust

I want to love by the Blue Lagoon
Kiss under the waning moon
Straying, claiming my place in this mortal coil

Riding the dolphins
Asking the mountains
Dreaming Alaska
The Earth can have but Earth

I want to find...

It's not the end...

Look into my eyes and see the wanderer
See the mirrors of a wolf behold the pathfinder

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(Once again - originally Japanese but translated)

Bathroom - Gazette

Why can't I sleep? I was fascinated by the silence.
It is empty to talk to myself in a damp room again.
Why can't I sleep? Because I saw you.
You look down at the wet floor. Leaning the head while sleeping.

I just didn't have any feelings for the uninteresting reality.
I adoringly looked at you without saying a word and even forgetting to blink.

I want to fall asleep, just feeling the fear of awaking.
I want to forget everything. It is selfish nonsense.
I call your name. I go mad with the silence.
I shouted while holding your thin shoulder, it was too frail with warmth.

I was fascinated by the uninteresting reality.
I found out that it even was meaningless that I had been borne not to cry.

The voice at my back kept on.
The reason was not important.
Only you look so sad in front of me.
I hate myself so much because I couldn't do anything for you.

I tell to you, who gave me my name. Can you be beside me as it is.
Yeh, for me you are the first and last "mother".

I softly lined you with deep red color on the white wall.
I came close, the still warm cheek. I just smiled calmly.
A big teardrop was filled with you. And I felt we could become one.
The time when the eyelids close and the warmth is gone, I am beside you.

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The Scientist - Coldplay

Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are,
I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart,
Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
Ah let's go back to the start,
Running in circles,
Calling tails, heads on a silence apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part,
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard,
Oh take me back to the start.

I was just guessing,
At numbers and figures,
Pulling the puzzles apart,
Questions of science,
Science and progress,
Did not speak as loud as my heart,
Tell me you love me,
Come back and haunt me,
I want to rush to the start,
Running in circles,
Chasing tails,
Coming back as we are.

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part,
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard,
I'm going back to the start.

Falling For You -Something Corporate

this drowning sorrow is shaking me
more than it ever has before
the road signs reading bitter end
leave me suspect of a crime

the city air chokes me today
more than it ever had before
i’m nervous to feel deserved
by these street signs anymore

are you
going to
be waiting up when i get home
we’ll stay up all night
getting drunk and watching sunsets on our porch

falling for you
falling for you
i fell for you
(im falling)
falling for you
(im falling)
falling for you
i fell for you

these empty feelings question me
of who i think i’ve become
mind is ticking life away
asking if you are the one

are you
going to
be waiting up when i get home
we’ll stay up all night
getting drunk and watching sunsets on our porch

falling for you
falling for you
i fell for you
(im falling)
falling for you
(im falling)
falling for you
i fell for you

i’m dying to explain my heart
to you now
i’m dying to explain my heart
to you now
there’s so much on my mind it’s tearing me apart
there’s so much on my mind it’s tearing me apart

falling for you
falling for you
i fell for you
(im falling)
falling for you
(im falling)
falling for you
i fell for you

Sad Astronaut - Lagwagon

As you sat on the bed
Moments from your end
Inconceivable dread
Inches from your head
I can't bear to imagine you

In that horror scene
One too sad to be
In my mind's eye I am there
Embracing you so scared
Now you kill me too
You killed me too

Decidedly willing to lie for you
Absolutely willing to cry for you
Ill at ease in saying goodbye to you
A part of me will never know

I am there again, intervals of red
An accomplice to
Things I couldn't do
In a fable disabled

I say words like foolish son
God what have you done
I'm a thin blue cliché, hopelessly
I'm a mouthful of doubtful

Decidedly willing to lie for you
Say again
Willing to cry for you
Finally saying goodbye to you
A part of you I'll never know

Looking through the spyglass in a punctured sky
While your garden died
You couldn't see the sky for your fallen stars?
Endless in your arms

You were still alive, even as the sad astronaut

Bad Days -Something Corporate

It's been a bad day,
another bad day and all I want to do is look at you and know I'm okay.
From where I'm sitting these shoes ain't fitting and I'm walking backwards,
looking down, don't see the sky I see the ground.

Above
below you look and so you wonder,
where the time has gone of looking up, tomorrows on the way.
Above
below you look and so you say,
when I wake up in the morning is it 'gonna be another ugly day?

She sits in church its 2 pm and look whose back from work again.
I guess they thought your better off, without this life, without a job.
From where I'm sitting these shoes ain't fitting and I'm going nowhere,
killing time, just trying to feed my bleeding mind.

It's been a bad day,
another bad day and I cross my heart and hope to die
these dreams of yours are 'gonna fly.

Once I Was - Jeff Buckley

Once I was a soldier
And I fought on foreign sands for you
Once I was a hunter
And I brought home fresh meat for you
Once I was a lover
And I searched behind your eyes for you
And soon there'll be another
To tell you I was just a lie

And sometimes I wonder
For a while
Do you ever remember me?

And though you have forgotten
All of our rubbish dreams
I find myself searching
Through the ashes of our ruins
For the days when we smiled
And the hours that ran wild
With the magic of our eyes
And the silence of our words

And sometimes I wonder
For a while
Do you ever remember me?

(Japanese AGAIN - but translated)

D.L.N (Dark Long Night) - Gazette

I knew it from the beginning. So I'm not sad.
Little by little, little by little, it's as counting numbers.

The colours of dying plants get blurred, I don't find out the end of season.

The day, which traces footsteps, reads the day, which listens to footprints.
It is common that I cannot change tomorrow if I don't have any wishes.

I follow the sound of dying plants. And I feel the end of season.
When the flowers are blooming, what will be left on my hand?

The moon closes the curtain. But the sun shines on me.
I knew it from the beginning. So I'm not sad.

Even if I wake up and the night doesn't end. And even if there are no shiny stars there.
Even if the all lights in the town vanish...
I saw enough of the happy face of the one I should protect and the end of the one I loved.
So I am satisfied with it.

Song of the sheep in dark long night

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Beauty and the Beast - Nightwish

Remember the first dance we shared?
Recall the night you melted my uglyness away?
The night you left with a kiss so kind
Only a scent of beauty left behind
Ah, dear friend I remember the night
The moon and the dreams we shared
Your trembling paw in my hand
Dreaming of that northern land
Touching me with a kiss of a beast
I know my dreams are made of you
Of you and only for you
Your ocean pulls me under
Your voice tears me asunder
Love me before the last petal falls
As a world without a glance
Of the ocean´s fair expanse
Such the world would be
If no love did flow in thee
But as my heart is occupied
Your love to me now has to die
Forgive me, I need more than you can offer me
Didn´t you read the tale
Where happily ever after was to kiss a frog?
Don´t you know this tale
In which all I ever wanted
I´ll never have
For who could ever learn to love a beast?
However cold the wind and rain
I´ll be there to ease up your pain
However cruel the mirrors of sin
Remember, beauty is found within
...Forever shall the wolf in me desire the sheep in you...

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Kare Uta [A Perishing Poem] - Gazette
(Translated from Japanese)

A poem in my heart was inane. I couldn't look for a meaning.
When I look back, nothing was left there.
The poem was like a flower, which fades away in time.
A perishing poem that never strikes the heart.

I seek a backway and bear away.
I must know it then, what does this heart break?
How much will the sound remaining in my ears ring the heart?

Nothing has changed since then.
And I can face forwards. Something isn't right, is it?
You went farther and I could not reach you.
You would be lonely, too.
What do I want? I was confused.
When I realized, you had already flown away.
I realized me powerless and looked back,
then there was a dried myself.

When I feel deeply sad,
a sincere poem like spilling tears,
and when I feel too happy to say something,
a poem lik a smile, I wish I could sing these songs.

A trembling is terrible and still continues.
When I pant and stop.
It is same as the time when there was nothing.
I don't want to go back to the cold days.

I have been dreaming a dream.
A step and the another step.
We support, smile together,
cry and get hurt.
Let's walk together on a same color dream.

The time when I felt too tough,
a person supported my weakness, I want to tell him.
I can only say awkwardly.
I want to stay here until the dead voice ends.

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Angellore - Tristania


When summer's gone flee my angel
Winterwinds they might lead you far away
Beyond the pale horizon, a greaven silence
Over dreams to my heart yet not remain

[Vibeke] Oh please believe
It's in her eyes
[Vibeke] It is inside
It's in her heart, the same relation from which
I once led astray
[Vibeke] Oh please believe
It's in her eyes
[Vibeke] It is inside
It's in her heart, the same delightful place
I once felt in you

Angellore revered at dusk
For thee I rose, now descend all alone
Rise for me, soothe my heart
So wide a sea, may I overcome

[Spoken] Into the night strays an angel
So lost and tearful all astray

Into the night strays an angel
So lost and tearful all astray
Lo where's the pale horizon
Oh where is dyingness
You reach for me beyond so wide a sea

[Vibeke] Oh please believe
It's in her eyes
[Vibeke] It is inside
It's in her heart, the same desire
I feel burning in me
[Vibeke] Oh please believe
It's in her eyes
[Vibeke] It is inside
It's in her heart, the same desire from
The empty pain within

Rise for me, soothe my heart
So wide a sea, may I overcome

[Vibeke] Deep as the sea, wailing secrecies are burning in me
For a dream I once desired
I bequeth my sorrow and I regret to thee
Cannot cross that wide a sea

Angellore revered at dusk
For thee I rose, now descend all alone
Rise for me, soothe my heart
So wide a sea, may I overcome

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Because tyhis song is just freakishly awesome.

Barely Breathing -Duncan Sheik

I know what you’re doing,
I see it all to clear
I only taste the saline when I kiss away your tears
You really had me going, wishing on a star
But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far
I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn
Well it must have been that yesterday was the day that I was born
There’s not much to examine, there’s nothing left to hide
You really can’t be serious if you have to ask me why

I say good-bye...

‘Cause I am barely breathing
And I can’t find the air
I don’t know who I’m kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay

Everyone keeps asking, what’s it all about?
I used to be so certain and I can’t figure out
What is this attraction? I only feel the pain
There’s nothing left to reason and only you to blame Will it ever change?


‘Cause I am barely breathing
And I can’t find the air
I don’t know who I’m kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay
But I’m thinking it over anyway...


I’ve come to find
I may never know
Your changing mind
Is it friend or foe?

I rise above
Or sink below
With every time
You come and go
Please don’t come and go

‘Cause I am barely breathing
And I can’t find the air
I don’t know who I’m kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay
But I’m thinking it over anyway

Mother Of Light (A New Age Dawns Part II) - Epica

It always put me on the edge,
To think of all the spoilt lives
Today I’m one step further
Not sure if I’ve survived myself

Reality is sometimes stranger than fiction
Whatever happens in my dreams
I know it can’t be worse than this
So I prefer to sleep

I am searching
~ without vision ~
For the answers in the dirt

I am waiting
~ just for nothing ~
For the day that I’ll be heard

You’re the sea in which I’m floating
And I lose myself in you
I am feeling these sensations
I communicate with you

I am looking
~ without vision ~
For a different kind of way

I am thinking
~ just for nothing ~
About that specific day

You’re the night so you’re the dark side
Of the day you’ll never see
You’re the past but everlasting
Can you share one day with me?

You’re the hand that I rejected
But I can’t forgive myself
I am selfish and not worthy
To think of, even to die for

Reality is sometimes stranger than fiction
Whatever happens in my dreams
I know it can’t be worse than this
So I prefer to sleep

Tomorrow, don’t know where I’ll be
I need some place to go now
So do you know the way I feel
Or shall I give up my belief?

You’re the lock I’ve never opened
‘Cause I threw away the key

I’m enclosed within my own thoughts
That will never set me free

Youre the hand that I rejected
But I cant forgive myself
I am selfish and not worthy
To think of, even to die for

You’re the question to the answer
And without there’ll never be
Any thought in this direction
You’ve created this in me

Youre the hand that I rejected
But I cant forgive myself
I am selfish and not worthy
To think of, even to die for

Serenity is taking over all I am, it gives me peace
And all I see are visions of my destiny
Why should I bleed and pay for the others’ greed?

We consciously sign our own sentence of death
How can you go on, did you forget
What we have learned from the past?
We can’t go on killing ourselves
And with us all the rest
Why can’t you see, don’t you regret?

Reality is sometimes stranger than fiction
Whatever happens in my dreams
I know it can’t be worse than this
So I prefer to sleep

I am alone with all my thoughts
Alone without a hope and
I lost the thing I needed most
I feel I can’t survive this fall

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