Shame Forever Mine - Silentium

Pain my friend
In solitude
This coldness suits me right
All the pain
I've struck through you
Is the shame forever mine

I felt you in my shiver
I hear you in my dreams
My body numb and linger
Stunned as dark reveals

It breathes the sweat of night air
It lurks behind my brows
I'm sorry that you were here
To witness all my faults

Pain my friend...

Longing for touch
Longing for arms
Around my hips
Lips for my lips

I'm worn and cast aside
Her thighs lay open wide

Yearning for one
Yearning for all
In lust I beg
Tongue on my neck

I'm worn and cast aside
Her thighs lay open wide

Pain my friend...

Invitia amente est
Perpetua pudeo mei
Carita Suus Renovare
Furore et dolore suus

To hurt and bleed this I deserve
May every tear strike every nerve
I dwell in depths, where I belong
Just let me sink with flames below

...with flames below!

Let my life, hour by hour,
Like fallen leaf by earth devour
With hollow end my hollow life
Without her bear my solemn strife

Longing for touch...

My emptiness
Yearning for one
I hide in you
Yearning for all
The tears I cry
In lust I beg
The shame I hide
Tongue on my neck

Rain my friend
You were right
This emptiness suits me fine
Every torn out
Tear she cried
Are for shame forever mine

Shame my friend
I hide in you
This loneliness stills the night
Every moment
Without you
Is the shame forever - mine!

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Soul of a Harper
by Rie Sheridan and music by Sheridan-Gunn

Oh, they say 'tis a hanging
that soon I will be--
My body a-twisting from
yonder oak tree--
For daring to think that a man
could live free...
but though I may die,
'tis a harper I'll be.

The strings of my harp
will never be stilled
while the green of the shamrock
still grows on the hill
for the music of Ireland
is her strength and her will
and the soul of a harper
no mortal can kill.

Oh, the red-headed queen on her
cold golden throne
fears harper freedom
she never has known
Our bright Gaelic passion
comes through in the tone
so she orders it silenced
and broods all alone.

The strings of my harp
will never be stilled
while the green of the shamrock
still grows on the hill
for the music of Ireland
is her strength and her will
and the soul of a harper
no mortal can kill.

For a man of the road,
death holds no sting.
'Tis another adventure--
a wonderous thing.
And I know that my music
will evermore ring
in the hills and the rivers
of each Irish spring.

The strings of my harp
will never be stilled
while the green of the shamrock
still grows on the hill
for the music of Ireland
is her strength and her will
and the soul of a harper
no mortal can kill.

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Married Artemis Fowl on July 16, 2007
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The Seemingly Nice But Actually Really Nasty Nazgul
School ate my life. *sigh*

The Irishman Who Doesn't Drink - Andrew McKee

Now listen all it's hard to think
of an Irishman who doesn't drink
and if you'd thought you'd found one
you would surely wonder why
the drink is good the drink is bad
but drink won't tell you what you've had
so look at me and all be sad
for that Irishman tis I

Me father drank, His father drank,
whose father drank, for his father's sake,
me Family tree could surely tap
a Guinness factory for sure...
Now me uncle was a handsome lad,
He's married more than five men had,
But his ailment wasn't all that bad,
For in drink he's found the cure

Now listen all it's hard to think
of an Irishman who doesn't drink
and if you'd thought you'd found one
you would surely wonder why
the drink is good the drink is bad
but drink won't tell you what you've had
so look at me and all be sad
for that Irishman tis I

Me sister who does love to read,
and loves to drink her favorite mead,
to understate she's well-studied,
In mead a doctorate in.
Me Cousin lives near Tennesseee,
His favorite drink of course JD
But his lawyer could not well agree
that it was his next of Kin

Now listen all it's hard to think
of an Irishman who doesn't drink
and if you'd thought you'd found one
you would surely wonder why
the drink is good the drink is bad
but drink won't tell you what you've had
so look at me and all be sad
for that Irishman tis I

When grandmither was very young,
She'd play at her granddad's for fun,
By riding all the day among,
The horses she did tell.
Now her granddad used to gamble drunk,
He beat a Carny's boat that sunk,
And won some holdings, not all junk.
Cause he kept the Carousel.

Now listen all it's hard to think
of an Irishman who doesn't drink
and if you'd thought you'd found one
you would surely wonder why
the drink is good the drink is bad
but drink won't tell you what you've had
so look at me and all be sad
for that Irishman tis I

I do not drink, I do not smoke,
I don't cavort with women folk,
Well maybe... just a little
I've a liberal view of sin.
Now ladies are my vice tis true
I like to see them through and through
And when I see no more to do...
Well then with drinking I'll begin.

Now listen all it's hard to think
of an Irishman who doesn't drink
and if you'd thought you'd found one
you would surely wonder why
the drink is good the drink is bad
but drink won't tell you what you've had
so look at me and all be sad
for that Irishman tis I



Background: This is a song Andrew started writing from an idea he had back in 2005. The fact that Andrew doesn't drink and plays Irish music at Irish pubs with Marc Gunn is always a good joke. It is not uncommon to get tipped a pint of guinness at a pub show. The result is always Marc getting Andrew's pint too. Using anecdotes and memories of his family, Andrew wrote this song to be semi-biographical with his Irish sense of humor.

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Married Artemis Fowl on July 16, 2007
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The Seemingly Nice But Actually Really Nasty Nazgul
School ate my life. *sigh*

The Poet And The Pendulum - Nightwish

”WHITE LANDS OF EMPATHICA”


The end.

The songwriter`s dead.
The blade fell upon him
Taking him to the white lands
Of Empathica
Of Innocence
Empathica
Innocence



”HOME”

The dreamer and the wine
Poet without a rhyme
A widowed writer torn apart by chains of hell

One last perfect verse
Is still the same old song
Oh Christ how I hate what I have become

Take me home

Getaway, runaway, fly away
Lead me astray to dreamer`s hideaway
I cannot cry `cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a *beep* for the cold world
Forgive me
I have but two faces
One for the world
One for God
Save me
I cannot cry `cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a *beep* for the cold world


My home was there `n then
Those meadows of heaven
Adventure-filled days
One with every smiling face

Please, no more words
Thoughts from a severed head
No more praise
Tell me once my heart goes right

Take me home

Getaway, runaway, fly away
Lead me astray to dreamer`s hideaway
I cannot cry `cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a *beep* for the cold world
Forgive me
I have but two faces
One for the world
One for God
Save me
I cannot cry `cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a *beep* for the cold world


”THE PACIFIC”

Sparkle my scenery
With turquoise waterfall
With beauty underneath
The Ever Free

Tuck me in beneath the blue
Beneath the pain, beneath the rain
Goodnight kiss for a child in time
Swaying blade my lullaby

On the shore we sat and hoped
Under the same pale moon
Whose guiding light chose you
Chose you all


” I`m afraid. I`m so afraid.
Being raped again, and again, and again
I know I will die alone.
But loved.

You live long enough to hear the sound of guns,
long enough to find yourself screaming every night,
long enough to see your friends betray you.

For years I`ve been strapped unto this altar.
Now I only have 3 minutes and counting.
I just wish the tide would catch me first and give me a death I always longed for ”.


”DARK PASSION PLAY”

2nd robber to the right of Christ
Cut in half - infanticide
The world will rejoice today
As the crows feast on the rotting poet

Everyone must bury their own
No pack to bury the heart of stone
Now he`s home in hell, serves him well
Slain by the bell, tolling for his farewell

The morning dawned, upon his altar
Remains of the dark passion play
Performed by his friends without shame
Spitting on his grave as they came

Getaway, runaway, fly away
Lead me astray to dreamer`s hideaway
I cannot cry `cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a *beep* for the cold world
Forgive me
I have but two faces
One for the world
One for God
Save me
I cannot cry `cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a *beep* for the cold world


Today, in the year of our Lord 2005,
Tuomas was called from the cares of the world.
He stopped crying at the end of each beautiful day.
The music he wrote had too long been without silence.


He was found naked and dead,
With a smile in his face, a pen and 1000 pages of erased text.”

Save me


”MOTHER & FATHER”

Be still, my son
You`re home
Oh when did you become so cold?
The blade will keep on descending
All you need is to feel my love

Search for beauty, find your shore
Try to save them all, bleed no more
You have such oceans within
In the end
I will always love you

The beginning.

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Easy Breezy--Utada Hikaru

I still remember the ways that you touched me
Now I know I don't mean anything to you
You're Easy Breezy and I'm Japanesey
Soon you'll mean exactly nothing to me
And that means...

You look stupid telling all your friends how you got the best of me
I intended to share the pleasure only
Now I look stupid
We're living in a world with a lot of pressure
It's quite unneeded to put more pressure on me

You came and went and left my house
Like a breeze just passing by
Hello, Goodbye
You left a note saying "Twas nice stopping by"
I shoud've never ever let you inside

I still remember the ways that you touched me
Now I know I don't mean anything to you
You're Easy Breezy and I'm Japanesey
Soon you'll mean exactly nothing to me
Does that mean anything to you

Easy Breezy
Do you whistle to hide that you're feeling lonely
How do I breathe with all this pressure on me
Easy Breezy
When you wrestle, you know that you hurt somebody
How do I breathe with all this pressure on me

You came and went and left my house
Like a breeze just passing by
Konnichiwa, Sayonara
'Twas nice of you to stop by
Would it amuse you if I told you that I...

I still remember the ways that you touched me
Now I know I don't mean anything to you
You're Easy Breezy and I'm Japanesey
Soon you'll mean exactly nothing to me
Does that mean anything to you

I still remember the ways that you touched me
Now I know I don't mean anything to you
You're Easy Breezy and I'm Japanesey
Soon you'll mean exactly nothing to me
Does that mean anything to you

She's got a new microphone

"Cathar Rhythm" Era

Don't you come back now?
Don't you turn your eyes?
And if you dare to look
I'll be you waiting

Impera ve nessimo
Impera sa mi ve nero
Dove di imantore divo

You hear my prayer
Don't you turn your eyes?
And if you dare to mourn
I'll be you waiting

Impera ve nessimo
Impera sa mi ve nero
Dove di imantore tora

E mani diavole
E mano diavole
E nere mani diavole

Impera ve nessimo
Impera sa mi ve nero
Dove di imantore divo

Don't you come back now?
Don't you turn your eyes?
E nere mani diavole
You hear my prayer
E nere mani diavole
I'll be you waiting

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And as he looked into her eyes
Within the auburn of her hair
The trembling starlight of the skies
He saw there mirrored bright and fair

♥In a poly relationship with Kili and Tauriel♥

'Mindtraveller' - Falconer

I travel over high mountains
Through deep valleys and forests
Crossing great rivers
In search of the knowledge of the gods
From far beyond place and time
I hear a whispering wind
It tells me to strive on
Through the horizon of my thoughts

I am the mindtraveller
My quest is man´s destiny
Teach me secret holy spells
And the wisdom of the elderly
Gazing into my mind
Entering my soul
Is there not a secret to unfold
(Here I have advices to be told)

I am the mindtraveller
Seeking wisdom of yore
I am the mindexplorer
Striving to know so much more
Spirits of history fill my soul
With divine old words
I am on the right track
Out of the haze I´ll emerge

I reach unknown corners
In the back of my mind
Never been here before
Still I recognise it all
I hear the whispering voices
Clearly all around me
Echoing in the valley
Where magic intellect dwells

Finally I can see the blind
Not knowing why they exists
I hear laments of nature
Where led the path we missed

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Real World - Matchbox Twenty

I wonder what it's like to be the rainmaker
I wonder what it's like to know that I make the rain
I'd store it in boxes with little yellow tags on every one
And you can come see them when I'm done
When I'm done

I wonder what it's like to be a super hero
I wonder where I'd go if I could fly around downtown
From some other planet, I get this funky high on yellow sun
Boy, I bet my friends will all be stunned
They're stunned

Straight up, what did you hope to learn about here?
If I were someone else, would this all fall apart?
Strange, where were you when we started this gig?
I wish the real world, would just stop hassling me

I wonder what it's like to be the head honcho
I wonder what I'd do if they all did just what I said
I'd shout out an order, 'I think we're out of this. Man, get
me some'
Boy, don't make me wanna change my tone
My tone

Straight up, what did you hope to learn about here?
If I were someone else, would this all fall apart?
Strange, where were you when we started this gig?
I wish the real world, would just stop hassling me

Please don't change, please don't break
The only thing that seems to work at all is you
Please don't change at all for me
To you, and you to me

Straight up, what did you hope to learn about here?
If I were someone else, would this all fall apart?
Strange, where were you when we started this gig?
I wish the real world, would just stop hassling me

"Missing" - Evanescence

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

[Chorus:]
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

[Chorus]

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

Lorelei - Theatre of Tragedy

Ferie dearest, was it loe soothfast or a façade;
A serenade siren'd to lure - Zounds! not to court me?
A menad, yet the sweetest colleen -
Certes didst thou me unveil meekly life pristine.

Lorelei,
A poet of tragedies, scribe I lauds to Death,
Yet who the hell was I to dare?
Lorelei,
Canst thou not see thou to me needful art?
Canst thou not see the loss of loe painful is?

Dedally didst thou perform the tragic pasquinade,
For all years a dam ndest and driegh'd accolade -
Caus'd for all eyes mazed to behold a męlee;
In the midst did I swainly cast thee my bouquet:
The one and sole faggot that feedeth the fire,
Bellow'd bidingly by my heart's quailing quire.

Lorelei,
A poet of tragedies, scribe I lauds to Death,
Yet who the hell was I to dare?
Lorelei,
Canst thou not see thou to me needful art?
Canst thou not see the loss of loe painful is?

Perchance author I thee this ikon'd apologue for aught,
Doth the wecht burthen thee?, then bethink thine afterthought:
'Tween Aether and 'Nether art thou the peerless phoenix -
Prithee, darlingmost! - court me rather than the peevish prolix.

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The Escapist - Nightwish

Who's there knocking at my window?
The owl and the Dead Boy
This night whispers my name
All the dying children

Virgin snow beneath my feet
Painting the world in white
I tread the way
Gonna lose myself into a tale

Come hell or high water
My search will go on
Play boy
Voyage without an end

The nightingale in a golden cage
That's me locked inside reality's maze
Can't someone make my heavy heart light?
Come undone
Bring me back to life

A nightingale in a golden cage
That's me locked inside reality's maze
Can't someone make my heavy heart light?
It all starts with a lullaby

Journey homeward bound
The sound of a dolphin calling
Tearing off the mask of man
The tower
My soul guide

This is who I am
Escapist
Paradise Seeker
Farewell, time to fly
Out of sight
Out of time
Away from our lives

The nightingale in a golden cage
The nightingale in a golden cage
That's me locked inside reality's maze
Can't someone make my heavy heart light?
Come undone
Bring me back to life

A nightingale in a golden cage
That's me locked inside reality's maze
Can't someone make my heavy heart light?
It all starts with a lullaby

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Ask DNA - The Seatbelts (Cowboy Bebop: The Movie OST)

Gummed up, brain dead and can't decide
You can't pray enough, you can't hide
You can be cool or you can cry
Do it wrong
Not at all
Or do it right

No one owes you, no one's to blame
Save for bad genes or DNA
Ask your conscience the why and how
Do it then
Do it when
But do it now

What's up sweet cakes?
Who's hip anyway?
Earthgirls are easy
What you gonna do lil' buckaroo?
(Hey you, better ask her nice!)
All you gotta do, happy fool, is ask your mom

No we all can't be Superfly, GQ, PhD, FBI
You can pretend and you can try
Move ahead
Lay down dead
Or slip on by

When the truth seems so faraway
Buddha loves you and Jesus saves
You need answers for your dismay

Ask yourself
Ask your mom
Ask DNA

What's up sweet cakes?
Who's hip anyway?
Earthgirls are easy
What you gonna do lil' buckaroo?
(Hey you, better ask her nice!)
All you gotta do, happy fool, is ask your mom

Kamakamakama ask your mama
Super groover mama Dahli Lama

What's up sweet cakes?
Who's hip anyway?
Earthgirls are easy
What you gonna do lil' buckaroo?
Come on!

What's up sweet cakes?
Who's hip anyway?
Earthgirls are easy
What you gonna do lil' buckaroo?
(Hey you, better ask her nice!)
All you gotta do, happy fool, is ask your mom


I couldn't help myself.

Gothic Lolita - Emilie Autumn

How old are you?
I'm older than you'll ever be
I've been dead a thousand years
And lived only two or three
I don't mind telling you
My life was ended by your hand
The kind of murder where nobody dies
But I don't suppose you'd understand
Call off the search
We've found her

If I am Lolita
Then you are a criminal
And you should be killed
By an army of little girls
The law won't arrest you
The world won't detest you
You never did anything
Any man wouldn't do
I'm Gothic Lolita
And you are a criminal
I'm not even legal
I'm just a dead little girl
But ruffles and laces
And candy sweet faces
Directed your furtive hand
I perfectly understand
So it's my fault?
No, Gothic Lolita

Thank you, kind sirs
You've made me what I am today
A bundle of broken nerves
A mouthful of words I'm still afraid to say
I don't mind telling you
Now that I'm old enough to love
I couldn't begin to even if
My pretty life depended on it
And funny thing, it does
Call off the search
We've found her

If I am Lolita
Then you are a criminal
And you should be killed
By an army of little girls
The law won't arrest you
The world won't detest you
You never did anything
Any man wouldn't do
I'm Gothic Lolita
And you are a criminal
I'm not even legal
I'm just a dead little girl
But ruffles and laces
And candy sweet faces
Directed your furtive hand
I perfectly understand
So it's my fault?
No, Gothic Lolita

I am your sugar
I am your cream
I am your anti-American dream

I am your sugar
I am your cream
I am your worst nightmare
Now scream

If I am Lolita
Then you are a criminal
And you should be killed
By an army of little girls
The law won't arrest you
The world won't detest you
You never did anything
Any man wouldn't do
I'm Gothic Lolita
And you are a criminal
I'm not even legal
I'm just a dead little girl
But ruffles and laces
And candy sweet faces
Directed your furtive hand
I perfectly understand
So it's my fault?
No, Gothic Lolita

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The Ocean - The Bravery

I climbed up a mountain, and looked off the edge
And all of the lies that I never have led
Is one where I stayed with you, accross the sea
I wonder do you still think of me
I carry your image always in my head
Folded and yellowed and torn at the edge
And I've looked upon it for so many years
Slowly I'm losing your face

Oh the ocean rows us away, away, away
The ocean rows us away

Sixes and sevens, we live on jet planes
And so many faces I don't know the names
So many friends now and none of them mine
Forgotten as soon as we meet
All of these moments are lost in time
But your caught on my head like a thorn on a vine
But to hurt but to mend me that I wonder why
Do I wish I'd never known you at all

Oh, the ocean rows us away, away, away
The ocean rows us away

Oh, the ocean rows us away, away, away
The ocean rows us away

The sun and the moon
An ocean of air
So many voices
But nothing is there
The ghost of you asking me why,
Why did I leave?

Oh, the ocean rows us away, away, away
The ocean rows us away
Oh, the ocean rows us away away away

And I lose your hand through the waves...

'Hello' - Evanescence

playground school bell rings again
rain clouds come to play again
has no one told you she's not breathing?
hello i'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
hello

if i smile and don't believe
soon i know i'll wake from this dream
don't try to fix me i'm not broken
hello i'm the lie living for you so you can hide
don't cry

suddenly i know i'm not sleeping
hello i'm still here
all that's left of yesterday

Living to Die - Hypocrisy

A cocoon binds my skin, it wants to keep me alive
I am the great messiah of the fallen paradise
Destroyed by my own creations, I cannot cope with life
The truth you know so well- it's just a big lie

You live to fear,

You lay yourself to rest
Programmed to crawl- it's just a battle with hell
We are the prey, cannot break this spell

We are the signs that caged in the dirt
We are the plague spreading through the world
We are the disease- the virus eating away
We are no one, we're just living to die

We're just a lie,

We're just a fake
I can't wait 'til I'm finally dead
Erase my numbers and hope to never return again
Computerized

We are all neutralized in a world
That's controlled by machines

You live to hate,

'til someone presses delete
The things we go- it's just a battle in hell
We are the dirt- can I break these chains?

We are the signs that caged in the dirt
We are the plague spreading through the world
We are the disease- the virus eating away
We are no one, we're just living to die

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