Ok... this might get a little weird but I had this idea so I figured I would put it down on a poem.



A cold night settled in,
On my dying home.
I'm covered in my blood again,
The cuts go to the bone.

I swallow hard to wet my throat,
But it's only dryer now.
Will my fears forever float,
In front of my eyes now?

What can I do to kill myself,
For I am all I fear.
All these riches, worldly wealth,
That decay throughout the year.

All my sin and anguish,
Now it must be full.
What more could I embellish,
Or what tricks could I now pull?

How could I clean away the blood,
That's running down my face?
How could I wash away the flood,
That took away His grace.

Walking to the edge,
Of the river wide.
I step off the ledge,
And fall beyond the side.

Into the waters deep,
I'm sinking ever down.
An everlasting sleep,
As myself I drown.

Now as I loose control,
He can enter in.
I kill myself to make me whole,
And get Him back again.

No blood, no death,
In reality.
It all was deep inside,
Somewhere inside of me.

Now all the death inside,
The blood and the tears.
All the times I lied,
Were submersed with my fears.

Submersed with my fear,
Submersed with my control.
In a river of my tears,
I gave Him back control.

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OMG! that one made me cry!!!!!!!

lol Well, it's got a lot of personal meaning for me. I just take the talent God has given me and do what He wants me to do. Past emotions, motivate...

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Thats v. sad,

Is the guy a murderer, then he takes his own life?

Its very macabre!

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I saw you look away
Is what you've seen too much to take, or are you blind and seeing nothing?
(I saw you run) I saw you run away
Is what I've done too much to take or are you scared of being nothing?

oooo, Jax, that one gives me shivers. It's not weird......weird's not the right word. It's just......idk wut it is. it just gives me the shivers. I like it though. u did a good job w/ it. Oh man, now i got goose bumps. lol Good job.

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"Great art is as irrational as great music. It is mad with its own loveliness."

No he isn't a murderer. It's kind of a... *thinks of way to explain* kind of like deep emotions set into visualization. An internal battle.

lol Not sure what to call it either.... But glad you liked as always.

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Wow Jax! I love it! It's dark and creepy but very well written! You are such a talented writer! Great job!

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AWESOME set by the AMAZING Lembas!!!

Very well done again, Jax. Somehow I know exactly what you are saying, but it is hard to explain. Dying to yourself, to live again...

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Thanks Haldir and Gil!
"You said: I know that this will hurt, but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse..."

Yeah it is hard to explain. It's more of an emotion to me really. *shrugs*

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Wow. This poem for me puts a lot of feelings I've felt into words. I'm not sure how to say it though... but it's a wonderfully done. It gives me chills.

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"Hogwarts will always be there to welcome you home."

Well I guess that's a good thing. lol

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*nods* it's very good, Jax. U tend to do that a lot.........put my feelings into words.

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"Great art is as irrational as great music. It is mad with its own loveliness."

Yep, exactly. The sign of an excelent writter.

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"Hogwarts will always be there to welcome you home."

I agree!

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"Great art is as irrational as great music. It is mad with its own loveliness."

lol well thanks.

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sure thing! just telling it the way it is! lol

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"Great art is as irrational as great music. It is mad with its own loveliness."