*sighs as well* (There's more to that than may be apparent--i'll tell you in a minute.)
At A&F, someone posted a video that (as i remember) they made with footage from many of Elijah's movies, set to the song Stop and Stare by One Republic. (I've never heard their music before, but i've fallen in love with this song.

) The vid is really well made, so i thought i'd show you.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=BFV62R2R_Vs
Now as for the other thing... As i've said before, i went to ORC last year, where i was able to see (tho not meet

) Sean and Elijah. (Today is one year since that day, btw.) Since i've been sad for a long time that it's over, even tho it was so long ago, i was really looking forward to the next one, especially since Elijah had agreed to make an appearance. Well, because of filmwork he had to cancel. I know he's got to work some time, but it still makes me so sad!

I was really looking forward to this, and that's not the only thing that i've been recently disapointed about. (The other thing was not being able to be in my ballet studio's next performance, because i'm still dealing with tendon injuries that cropped up about a year ago!

) I may still go...hopefully it will be worth it. I'll tell you about it if i do.

I hope we can all meet him some day. I know that i'm lucky just to have seen him, but thinking that doesn't really help, if you know what i mean.

But i am glad to have friends like you i can go to.
Anyway, being my usual Eariel-ish self

, i've written a couple poems to kind of...express my feelings. It seems to help. So I wanted to show you one i did yesterday. I was thinking of maybe calling it "Away," but i'm not quite sure about the title yet. (You may detect an Evanescence influence...

It kind of reminds me of their song Even in Death, personally.) So here goes.
Do I have to watch you leave again--
Away from my world--across the Sea?
Now I have to let you go again,
But I can't pretend I don't grieve for you--
Why should Fate have to cleave us two?
The Sea reflects my tears,
Crimson as sunset...
They can take you away from me,
And Time can break my heart so well!--
But I've a treasure that cannot be
Stolen from my citadel:
Whatever comes to pass now,
I always know I love you...
Though I should wait a thousand years
To meet your gaze, and know you see me,
Your smile would be worth the years--
I know you don't remember me,
Yet sweet I hold the memory:
The Sky reflects my tears,
Silver with starlight...
They can take you away from me,
And Time can break my heart so well!--
But I've a treasure that cannot be
Stolen from my citadel:
Whatever comes to pass now,
I always know I love you...
I'll be waiting
For the Sunrise--
Hope is burning
In the darkness:
(Come sweet light--
Stars ablaze,
Fair and white,
Hold my gaze:
Like the Morn,
My star gleams--
Dawn reborn,
In my dreams...)
They can't take this away from me:
You illuminate my heart so well!--
Even if Morning should never be,
Sweet starbeams grace my citadel:
Whatever comes to pass now,
I always know I love you--
It has to be enough.